Brianna

I used to be person who talked about everything… anything that was on my mind, any concern or pain i felt the need to express to someone, i am not like that anymore. I don’t know why but i’m not. Every time i feel like i should go an talk to someone about my feelings i stop myself. I feel as though it is exhausting and way to much work to articulate everything i am feeling only for the other person to never fully comprehend. So now i keep  all thoughts to myself, to be honest i am not sure its the best idea or if i am even happy being like this, i just know it is what it is. I do find that i am drifting away from people because of my lack of communication and that scares me. After all life is about your relationships and who you surround yourself with. Maybe i just need someone to sit with me in silence and just not say anything. I have had so much to distract me from my thoughts, from school, to work and paint me pretty… but now school will be over soon and peak season for paint me pretty is ending too. I will have way to much time to think. For some, you may consider this a good thing, time to sit and gather your thoughts, but then again you don’t know me. You never want to give me too much time to think, because i will just drive myself crazy. I know these feelings that i am having, this gloom and overwhelming anxiety, they are all too familiar to me… they come and they go, if i am lucky they can disappear for months, but when they come back i can only fear the worst that they will never leave…. and i will return to the horrible state i was in a year or so back. That was probably the worst time in my life, and i fear everyday that i will relapse back there. If your reading this your probably wondering why i would let all these people into my very personal thoughts….why not keep it private? truth is sometimes it just feels good to let everything out and feel like someone is their,like your not just talking to yourself, even if in reality no one reads this. 

dreiaclaro:

Photographer: Andreia Claro

Model: Krysta Almeida

Makeup: Brianna Pais 

Hair: Allison Ducharme

Took some head shots of pretty ladies for my very talented makeup artist friend Brianna.

These came out AMAZING! If you like what you see check out the Paint me Pretty facebook page for more information on getting your make-up done!

www.facebook.com/paintmepretty2

dreiaclaro:

Photographer: Andreia Claro

Model: Jessica Phan

Makeup: Brianna Pais 

Hair: Allison Ducharme

Took some head shots of pretty ladies for my very talented makeup artist friend Brianna.

These came out AMAZING! If you like what you see check out the Paint me Pretty facebook page for more information on getting your make-up done!

www.facebook.com/paintmepretty2

dreiaclaro:

Photographer: Andreia Claro

Model: Emilia Dragowska

Makeup: Brianna Pais 

Hair: Allison Ducharme

Took some head shots of pretty ladies for my very talented makeup artist friend Brianna.

These came out AMAZING! If you like what you see check out the Paint me Pretty facebook page for more information on getting your make-up done!

www.facebook.com/paintmepretty2

sometimes i forget how lucky i really am

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want that hair!

WTF I miss you…. I never wanted to feel this. I don’t want to miss you. I don’t want to think about you all the time. I don’t want to wish I was with you. I don’t wanna to wish that I could see you right now. But I do. I was suppose to be able to fight these feelings.I don’t wanna be vulnerable and that is exactly how I feel right now. Really mad at myself. Any girl probably thinks I am stupid and should be happy about these new found feelings but I am not. I am terrified and want then to go away. I don’t want to feel like I need someone to make me happy. I make everything so complicated